Tuesday, January 20, 2015
New Beginnings
So, I've been pretty neglectful with keeping this thing up to date, so I wanted to apologize to anyone who's been following this blog. My goal for this year is to do a minimum of 2-4 posts a month on this, ranging from topics of the paranormal, horror flicks and the obscure...along with a few short stories and project here and there of my design. Here's to a productive 2015 and hopefully I'll see more out of you guys as well.
Friday, February 14, 2014
The “Phantom Anesthetists”: The famous cases of the “Mad Gassers of Mattoon & Roanoke” Part 2
The Return of the “Phantom Anesthetist”
We move ahead from the bizarre events surrounding the
citizens of Botetourt County, Virginia during the winter of 1933/34 and fast
forward ten years to 1944. The world has escaped the clutches of “The Great
Depression” only to find itself plunged into the full out horror of World War
II. The backdrop of the Mad Gasser’s
return would coincide with the height of the war in 1944. America was in full war time mode, with the
majority of the men from the country out in the trenches of Europe or island
hopping in the Pacific fighting to protect their homeland from the axis powers. Fear and paranoia hung in the air like a
vaporous poison, and looking back now it seemed a perfectly eerie backdrop to
the return of the “Phantom Anesthetist”.
This time though, the Mad Gasser would pick a new location to begin a
new reign of terror…..Mattoon, Illinois.
The Terror Begins Anew
On August 31st,
1944 in a small house on Grant Avenue in the town of Mattoon, Illinois would
become the first stage in the Mad Gasser’s attacks upon the town. A gentleman by the name of Urban Raef was
awoken by a strange odor that had encompassed most of the interior of his house. Soon Mr. Raef was overtaken by headaches, nausea
leading to bouts of vomiting and even myasthenia (muscle weakness). Urban’s wife, suspecting that perhaps there
was a leak in the gas line to the house, attempted to check the gas line for
her husband. Unfortunately, she found
herself partially paralyzed and unable to move out of bed. Mr. & Mrs. Raef would simply be the first
victims of the night, with another two (a mother & daughter) being added to
the list by the morning.
September 1st
would bring another group of victims as well as a description of the
assailant. A Mrs. Kearney reported that
at around 11 p.m. , a strange odor began to overtake her household. At first Mrs. Kearney dismissed the smell,
but soon the gas became overwhelming, and eventually she began to suffer from
partial paralysis along with nausea. In
a panic Mrs. Kearney contacted her sister (whom was upstairs at the time) about
her condition, whom in turn contacted the police. Mrs. Kearney’s husband arrived home around
12:30 a.m. and discovered an unidentified assailant outside of his
household. Mr. Kearney described the
assailant as a tall, thin framed man wearing dark clothing and a tight fitting
cap around his head. Mr. Kearney
attempted to chase after the prowler, but ultimately the mysterious individual was
able to escape. This would remain the
general description of the “Mad Gasser of Mattoon” for the rest of the timeline
of the attacks.
For nearly two weeks
the attacks continued, remaining more or less the same throughout. An unknown assailant would sneak up to houses
and through various entryways (usually through a cracked windows, doors, and
even holes in the floorboard), would inject some sort of gas into these
households. The victims inside would all
suffer more or less from the same symptoms (partial paralysis, nausea/vomiting,
headaches, and swelling (of the mouth, tongue, nasal passages, and the
trachea)). From August 31st
to September 13th, the Gasser’s reign of terror would hold the town
of Mattoon hostage until, as mysteriously as the Gasser appeared, the Gasser disappeared without a trace. The police
ultimately found little evidence as to the identity of the Gasser. Though several misnomers about the identity
and the methods used by the Gasser in his/her’s attacks were brought up by the
victims, none of them were able to paint a complete picture of the Gasser or of
the Gasser’s motives.
*One of the victims reported seeing blue gas being pumped
into her house and also hearing the buzzing of some sort of equipment. It was hypothesized that the Gasser was using
equipment traditionally used by farmers for fumigating crops.
*The supposed final victim, a Ms. Bertha Burch described an
encounter with the Mad Gasser, and said that the Gasser was a woman dressed as
a man. While a set of woman’s footprints
were found on Ms. Burch’s property that were not the victim’s, the police ultimately
were unable to collaborate her story.
Theories on the Mattoon Gasser’s Identity
1. Mass Hysteria/Burglar: It’s been proposed that a possible burglar
was using some sort of anesthesia/sleeping gas/ Diethyl ether to paralyze
victims while robbing the house. This
may be a copycat burglar whom followed after the potential assailant in Botetourt
County in 1934
2. Toxic Waste or Pollution/emissions from a nearby
factory: Police investigated nearby
factories and released public statements about the possibility of pollution
from nearby factories being a potential cause of sickness amongst those in
Mattoon. This may take into account the similarly
reported (sweet odor) and symptoms across all the victims.
3. An Actual Assailant: It is possible that the assailant had some
connection to the Gasser attacks in Botetourt County and may actually be one in
the same.
4.
Aliens/Paranormal Beings: It has been hypothesized that due to the bizarre
attacks by “The Phantom Anesthetist” and the fact that there were no discernible
reasons behind the attacks (burglary, murder, sexual assault, etc) and also the
fact that there was no physical trace of the Gasser, some people theorize that
the Gasser’s identity may lie more in the paranormal. People throughout the decades have suffered
from experiences of being paralyzed in bed and being visited by “strange beings”
that do nothing physically traceable to them except viewing them. Could the “Mad Gasser” be a precursor or
interpretation of such experiences?
5. Disturbed Medical Student: Scott Maruna, a former resident that was affected by the 1944 Mattoon attacks wrote a book entitled "The Mad Gasser of Mattoon: Dispelling the Hysteria", theorized that a medical student from The University of Illinois by the name of Farley Llewellyn may have been responsible for the gas attacks. Mr. Llewellyn was known as an accomplished chemist student that was ridiculed by the population of Mattoon due to rumors that he was a homosexual. More information about this can theory can be found in Mr. Maruna's book.
No other attacks were reported after 1944. At the time of this posting, no information on the identity or the whereabouts of "The Phantom Anethesist" has been found
5. Disturbed Medical Student: Scott Maruna, a former resident that was affected by the 1944 Mattoon attacks wrote a book entitled "The Mad Gasser of Mattoon: Dispelling the Hysteria", theorized that a medical student from The University of Illinois by the name of Farley Llewellyn may have been responsible for the gas attacks. Mr. Llewellyn was known as an accomplished chemist student that was ridiculed by the population of Mattoon due to rumors that he was a homosexual. More information about this can theory can be found in Mr. Maruna's book.
No other attacks were reported after 1944. At the time of this posting, no information on the identity or the whereabouts of "The Phantom Anethesist" has been found
Thursday, February 6, 2014
The “Phantom Anesthetists”: The famous cases of the “Mad Gassers of Mattoon & Roanoke” Part 1
The evening hours are waning as you prepare yourself for bed. Consciousness begins to slip away from you as you wrap yourself tightly in the sheets of your bed. The toils of the day have begun to slowly dissolve away from your thoughts as your mind slips into sleep. However, a
sudden draft of cold air escaping from a raised window stirs you awake. Through
the fog of your memory you can’t seem to remember cracking the window open, but
then again all of your memories and thoughts at the moment are insubstantial
and scattered. Even though you’re mostly
awake now, your thoughts cannot and will not come to focus. You
only think in passing that you can smell something in the air that's unfamiliar. The smell is sweet yet oddly similar to the smell of sickness. Your eyes attempt to focus out of the dream world and back into reality as
you glance at the window. For a moment,
you think you catch the glimpse of a thin framed figure crawling through the now half opened window. You begin to think that childhood fears are somehow returning to prominence in your mind. You feel silly to suddenly be afraid of the dark, and perhaps you try to displace the thoughts. You blink a few times to rid yourself of the
fragments of sleep that still cling to your eyelids. As the world comes to focus, you find nothing
there behind the window except the curtains swaying slightly against the draft
of the night air. You decide that the
cool air is too much of an inconvenience so you try to get up to close the window. However, you realize quite suddenly and terrifyingly that your body and mind are
disconnected. Your limbs are weak and
brittle and will not respond to the impulses of your brain. Even your
lungs seem to struggle to keep their automatic functions steady and stable. You want
to panic, but something in the air prevents the reptilian part of your brain
from activating your primal instincts.
You are alone and paralyzed. As
you lie there with hope ebbing out of your body, you feel the presence of
someone or something in the room. You
catch the thing; a tall vaguely human shaped figure wearing a coat and black
garbs that give nothing away of what, if any, flesh and bone that may lay underneath. The figure almost seems too thin to be a man, but the fumes in the air are distorting your vision. The reality around you is bending and contorting in odd forms. The figure itself ceases for a moment to even resemble that of a man. Though, your focus keeps jumping from the terrifying delusion and the even more terrifying reality of this thing. A tight fitting hat of some
sort obscures the figure’s face, if it even has one, and the only thing truly discernible about the
figure is the fact that you can see a sort of tubing hanging out from the
figure’s clothes that connects to some sort of sprayer. It looks almost like a stereotypical
insecticide sprayer that maybe someone you know uses on their flowers. The figure hovers
over you for a while as it lifts the sprayer and releases puffs of gas around
you. The smell is familiar now, the same
sweet odor you detected before this nightmare began. You feel nauseated and you can feel your
throat slowly swelling. Consciousness is
slipping fast and you close your eyes.
Hours pass like seconds and as your eyes open and you blink between the
rays of the morning sun, the nausea remains and along with it a headache that now gnaws
away at the sensors of your brain. You
can move now, albeit your limbs are stiff and sore. You're slowly gaining control back. Whatever poison the thing used to
paralyze you has mostly worked its way out of your system…still though the lingering
effects are there. You look around and notice that nothing looks missing in
your room on from your person. You look to the window and find is completely
opened. The impression of footprints can
be seen all around your bed, leading to and from the window. You’re left with more questions than answers.
What was this thing that visited you last night? Why did this person or thing
go through such actions and steps to paralyze you without killing you or
stealing from you? Was it merely the act
of a deranged individual or something else?
While this may sound a bit like something out of a Weekly World News
magazine or a subject on a late night paranormal radio show, an entity/individual known as
the “Phantom Anesthetist/The Mad Gasser(s) of Roanoke/Mattoon” commited similar attacks
as described above in possibly two separate time periods in 1933/34 and again
in 1944. While both events are divided by nearly 10 years
and occurring in two places, Botetourt County, Virginia and Mattoon, Illinois, both separated by
hundreds of miles, the circumstances of the attacks and the methods
employed in the attacks were eerily similar.
Several theories exist about whom or what was responsible for these
attacks including 1: (For both places) A panic created from a mass hysteria
induced by a single/multiple perpetrators' attack on a family, 2: (In the case of
Mattoon) At least one chemical leak in a nearby factory, 3: A potentially
mentally disturbed individual (Roanoke) or mentally disturbed medical student
(Mattoon), and even 4: the possibility of extra-terrestrials visiting and
conducting experiments on individuals in these specific locations. We’ll explore some of those theories as well
as have some recounts from the events involving the “The Mad Gassers of
Roanoke/Mattoon".
On December 22nd, 1933 one family’s terrifying encounter
with the entity that will eventually be known as “The Mad Gasser of Roanoke”
made headlines. The story goes as
follows…
In Botetourt County, Virginia at roughly 10 p.m., the matriarch of the Huffman family reported smelling an unusual sweet odor that was seeping into and through her home. Within minutes of coming into contact with the gas, she became overwhelmed with nausea. Within a half an hour from the first appearance and fading of the odor, another wave of the mysterious gas overtook the home and its occupants. The father of the household, Mr. Hoffman, contacted the police after noticing the unusual odor and gas that was seeping into the house. After the gas dissipated, Mr. Huffman and his family, along with a guest Ashby Henderson retired to their individual bedrooms for sleep. The true nightmare began around 1 a.m. as the house again began filling with the nauseous gas. The symptoms from the gas intensified, resulting in all 8 members of the Huffman family along with their guest suffering from headaches, nausea, and swelling of the face, mouth, and throat. One of Mr. Huffman’s daughters, Alice Huffman suffered a severe reaction and eventually passed out, having to be ultimately resuscitated back to life. Remnants from the gas attacks would affect her for subsequent weeks after the bizarre incident. Neither the Huffman family or their guest were able to identify who or what was behind the incident. Nearly two days later another family was attacked via gas being injected into their household. The bizarre assaults by the Mad Gasser were only beginning.
A depiction of the "Phantom Anesthetist"
On December 24th, a house in Cloverdale, Virginia
would be the next target of the bizarre Gasser.
The household of Mr. and Mrs. Hall along with their two children were
exposed to an unknown gas agent. Similar
symptoms were reported being suffered by the Hall family as those experienced
by the Huffman family. However this time, police were able to track the source of where the gas was emanating from. Police believed that an unidentified
individual had removed a nail from a rear window of the Hall’s house and
used this hole to inject the gas. Forensic
evidence, including high concentrations of residue left by the gas in the area of the nail hole showed that
the gas was being pumped into the house from that area of the home. Mr. Hall rallied several other men from nearby homes and formed a search party in order to track down the assailant, but no suspects were found. Soon after the incident with the Hall family,
numerous other incidents were reported to the police that followed along with a
strange and similar pattern to the first two attacks. For three days the Gasser continued upon his or her's bizarre rampage. On December 28th, the Gasser's attack abruptly ended. The local police were offering a $500 reward for any information on the Gasser, a sizable sum considering the Great Depression at the time. The reward was never claimed. It would be nearly two weeks before the Gasser's attacks would begin again.Hhhh
One report to the police by a local resident on January 10th mentions that she heard voices before she watched a billow of gas being injected into her house through a cracked window. No description of the assailant was given though. The Gasser's attacks quickly escalated over the following weeks, leading to an all out police investigations as well as several mobs searching in vain for the "Phantom Anesthetist". January 22nd would prove to be the height of the mad Gasser's devious attacks as within a span of an hour the Gasser attacked three sets of individuals before disappear into the night. Raymond Ette and his son, the second group to be victims of the Gasser, claimed to have pursued the Gasser into the woods near their house, even going so far as to fire upon the fleeing Gasser. Though, no evidence that the Gasser was wounded or killed was found. The most frightening aspect of the Gasser's attack was the fact that it seemed as if the Gasser was experimenting on various new types of chemical compositions for his gas.
On February 3rd, the Skagges family was attacked by the Gasser. Mr. Skagges, his wife, and children all suffered from the same effects previously reported by past victims as well as the additional effects of hallucinations and temporary mania. Even the family's dog was reported to have been affected by the gas . The Gasser was evolving in his technique, and it was bringing the people who called the area home to their knees in terror.
February 9th would be considered to be the final day the Gasser would strike before disappearing into obscurity. A gentleman by the name of J.G. Shafe reported a run in with the Gasser in his own home. Mr. Shafe chased the assailant through the snow drifts that covered his land, eventually cornering the Gasser in a barn. However, as Shafe moved in for the kill, The Gasser had mysteriously vanished. Police were called to the scene and followed the footprint trail from Shafe's house to the barn. No evidence was found of footprints leaving from the barn. The Gasser vanished without a trace. It should be noted though that the vague imprints of women's shoes were found nearby on Mr. Shafe's property. However, the distance between the woman's shoe prints and the barn were inconclusive.
Nearly a dozen cases from the advent of the Gasser's attacks on December 22nd through the final one on February 9th were reported. Some of the reported incidents mentioned the possibility of several Gassers working in congruency. One report even mentioned that a family that was affected by the Gasser(s)' attack saw four unknown individuals fleeing from their home and into some nearby woods. Whether or not this was a hallucination from the gas or a real coordinated assault by multiple individuals is unknown. While the police say that several additional claims were made in concerns to the Mad Gasser, several were written off as hoaxes or hysteria. Theories ranged from a panic caused by a potential burglar to a mentally disturbed individual(s) attempting to poison people through the use of insecticides and a flit gun. One unique theory that I'd like to mention that was thrown around at the time was the possibility that the attacks were a form of lashing out by formers soldiers whom were the victims of gas attacks in WW1. A sort of PTSD/shell shock formulating into a psychosis that led the soldiers to act out the abuse they suffered on the battlefield upon others. No matter the theories, as abruptly as the “Phantom Anesthetist” appeared, the entity disappeared forever into the night, leaving more questions than answers. It would be 11 years later and hundreds of miles away in Illinois that a similar string of attacks would occur. This time, a portrait of whom or what was behind the attacks would emerge.
One report to the police by a local resident on January 10th mentions that she heard voices before she watched a billow of gas being injected into her house through a cracked window. No description of the assailant was given though. The Gasser's attacks quickly escalated over the following weeks, leading to an all out police investigations as well as several mobs searching in vain for the "Phantom Anesthetist". January 22nd would prove to be the height of the mad Gasser's devious attacks as within a span of an hour the Gasser attacked three sets of individuals before disappear into the night. Raymond Ette and his son, the second group to be victims of the Gasser, claimed to have pursued the Gasser into the woods near their house, even going so far as to fire upon the fleeing Gasser. Though, no evidence that the Gasser was wounded or killed was found. The most frightening aspect of the Gasser's attack was the fact that it seemed as if the Gasser was experimenting on various new types of chemical compositions for his gas.
On February 3rd, the Skagges family was attacked by the Gasser. Mr. Skagges, his wife, and children all suffered from the same effects previously reported by past victims as well as the additional effects of hallucinations and temporary mania. Even the family's dog was reported to have been affected by the gas . The Gasser was evolving in his technique, and it was bringing the people who called the area home to their knees in terror.
February 9th would be considered to be the final day the Gasser would strike before disappearing into obscurity. A gentleman by the name of J.G. Shafe reported a run in with the Gasser in his own home. Mr. Shafe chased the assailant through the snow drifts that covered his land, eventually cornering the Gasser in a barn. However, as Shafe moved in for the kill, The Gasser had mysteriously vanished. Police were called to the scene and followed the footprint trail from Shafe's house to the barn. No evidence was found of footprints leaving from the barn. The Gasser vanished without a trace. It should be noted though that the vague imprints of women's shoes were found nearby on Mr. Shafe's property. However, the distance between the woman's shoe prints and the barn were inconclusive.
Nearly a dozen cases from the advent of the Gasser's attacks on December 22nd through the final one on February 9th were reported. Some of the reported incidents mentioned the possibility of several Gassers working in congruency. One report even mentioned that a family that was affected by the Gasser(s)' attack saw four unknown individuals fleeing from their home and into some nearby woods. Whether or not this was a hallucination from the gas or a real coordinated assault by multiple individuals is unknown. While the police say that several additional claims were made in concerns to the Mad Gasser, several were written off as hoaxes or hysteria. Theories ranged from a panic caused by a potential burglar to a mentally disturbed individual(s) attempting to poison people through the use of insecticides and a flit gun. One unique theory that I'd like to mention that was thrown around at the time was the possibility that the attacks were a form of lashing out by formers soldiers whom were the victims of gas attacks in WW1. A sort of PTSD/shell shock formulating into a psychosis that led the soldiers to act out the abuse they suffered on the battlefield upon others. No matter the theories, as abruptly as the “Phantom Anesthetist” appeared, the entity disappeared forever into the night, leaving more questions than answers. It would be 11 years later and hundreds of miles away in Illinois that a similar string of attacks would occur. This time, a portrait of whom or what was behind the attacks would emerge.
A Flint Gun used in the early 20th century for spraying insecticides.
Friday, November 4, 2011
Dwellers on The Threshold: Voices through Static
EVP (Electronic Voice Phenomenon) are electronic voices that appear in conjecture with radio broadcasts, recordings, transmissions, and white noise. These voices are created by the butchering and cannibalization of various recordings and then reconfigured in such ways that they are believed to be attempts at communication with the receiver of the messages by some unknown entity or force. These voices have no traceable origin and seem to appear at random intervals of length in communication. The voices often seem to home in on those using radio equipment as a communication device and have been known to answer in cryptic fashions to radio operator’s questions. Theories about where the voices originate range from coincidence, alien contact, ghostly contact, or potentially even other dimensions. While considered by today’s standards as a pseudoscience, the study of EVP was once a serious phenomenon that was studied as an emerging result of the growing use of radio and television in the early to mid-20th century. While the story below the links involves my first experience with EVP and will mainly discuss this, you should take the time to check out the links below and learn a little bit as I will not be relaying some nimrod story about bumbling around an abandoned house with a tape recorder asking spirits redundant and pointless questions about how it’s like being dead and stuck in a shitty limbo while being bothered by the living.
For more information on EVP, check out the following links.
Friedrich Jürgenson: Considered the first pioneer of the study and understanding of EVP
Dr. Konstantīns Raudive: Parapsychologist and the father of the modern study of EVP
The Ghost Orchid: An Introduction to EVP: A fantastic CD that explains the history of and offered several samples of EVP. I even own a copy myself.
Overview of EVP: For those who are unaware, EVP wasn’t originally a phenomenon that half-wit ghost hunters on television discovered with crappy tape recorders. There actually is a bit of science behind it.
It was the loud screaming of an unfamiliar woman’s voice through the speaker in the police scanner that violently awoke me from my sleep. Stirring awake in a bit of confusion, but mostly irritation, I quickly realized I had dozed off in the remarkably comfortable rocking chair on my front porch while listening into the lives of people I had never met, and from some of the conversations I’ve overheard, I’d probably never would want to meet. As I stretched a bit, I turned my attention to the police scanner and began my search again for another interesting glimps into a nearby neighbor's life, the conversation with the screaming woman involving her torrent love triangle between her husband and lesbian lover had settled into sobbing, and even I knew that it was best to turn the channel. I thought for a moment that I heard something cutting through the static of one of the channels as they scanner passed through several channels. A voice it seemed was building in the background white noise and I waited with a sort of reserved anticipation, but nothing conjured and I passed it off as nothing else but a weak signal that failed to reach. Sometimes when the signals become entangled through the transistors, conversations and music from distant locations fight and meld into a strange ambiance that I cannot help but to feel is being somehow controlled by some unforeseen force. At times, I’m reminded of my childhood with my grandfather and a strange event that some would consider paranormal.
On cool, fall evenings with the dimming, twilight sun barely illuminating the seemingly endless corn fields of my grandfather’s farm I would listen along with my grandfather to his police scanner and CB radio while he spoke about bits and pieces of his youth. I never realized at the time as he went about the stories how the conversations and voices coming through the police scanner seemed to form a sort of strangely constructed soundtrack that, now that I think about it, became an unsettling background score for a man unfolding bits and pieces of his life to a child that, at the time, did not fully grasp the weight of the words. Every so often, whenever a specific message would come through the CB radio, my grandfather would pause from his story and speak into the CB, and, after receiving some muffled confirmation, would continue on with whatever exciting point we were on in one of his past misadventures. One has to wonder why a farmer out on the countryside would need these tools to communicate to truckers and vagrants of the highways. Perhaps it was some strange network of human connection for those without a home that my grandfather provided. Maybe he was running a bootlegging operation. Hell, maybe it was something that I should best leave to the confines of the past. I suppose the men who keep such secrets probably knew it was best to keep them to their grave. To this day, I’ve never found an answer.
It was during one of these evenings with my grandfather that I had my first experience with EVP. As usual, my grandfather and I found ourselves on the front porch of his home listening to the CB while my grandmother brought us out bowls of her special chicken and dumplings. The crisp, fall air brought about the lovely scents of distant things that I can only describe as pure nostalgia, but for a kid it meant the aroma of warm chicken and the faint smell of a camel cigarette slowly burning between my grandfather’s fingers. The perfection of that moment has now been outlined with some unspeakable ominous highlight that I all but now can recognize with each replay of it in my mind. The CB radio, with a distant voice of a trucker asking for directions, was scrambled by a voice that I can only describe as ethereal and familiar. I remember my grandfather becoming rigid as this female voice began to sing in strange lyrical tones that seemed almost an amalgam of various songs sewn together with only the voice remaining the same. I cannot remember the words of the voice, but my grandfather intently held onto each of them I know because he spoke each of them silently as I watched on. He scrambled to pick up the microphone and held it wordlessly to his lips as the lyrical voice stopped. As he lowered it for a moment with a blank expression on his face, the voice returned and spoke again in the lyrical tone, and I could have sworn I heard the name “Julian” within the song.
The significance of this being the fact it was my grandfather’s name. My grandfather kept repeating a name through the microphone with muddled urgency. “Claire? Claire…Claire?” His voice repeated until it became an almost inaudible whisper. Abruptly, my grandfather stood up and nearly ripped off the power switch off the CB radio as he mumbled to himself angrily. He turned to me and with a look of absolute fatigue asked me to go inside. “But who was that grandpa? Who’s Claire?” I asked as I slinked to the door. He looked up to me before I entered into the house and mumbled “She passed away a long time ago”. I could tell from his voice that I was not to tread any further with questions. I never told my grandmother or anyone else about that night, simply because I knew even then what had happened was nothing that could quite be explained, only described in the often obscured lines and shades of words that will never hold the appropriate weight of the event’s significance. Years later, long after my grandfather had passed away and those wonderful Fall evenings had become only memories, I still have the CB radio and police scanner he used, in which I might add still work perfectly.
On nights when my hermitic nature takes over, I find myself sitting alone on my porch listening to the CB radio and scanner in an attempt to find any myriad of fascinating glimpses into others' lives through the speaker. This usually goes on for several hours of the evening and morning until the liquor or wine that I bring out with me has been emptied, and my body has become rigid from the rocking chair I usually occupy. I still wait until the last weight of the day’s events bring my eyelids to a close, clinging to some strange and hesitant hope that one day I’ll hear a familiar voice from my past through the speaker, singing those familiar lyrical tones that haunted my grandfather that one night when I was a child.
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